I'M NOT LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE

Gay Dancer

Emboof@verizon.net — Wed, 24 Feb 2010 05:20:21 GMT

Doing a search on youtube I found video of myself dancing at a Bellfurs meet. Coolness:

Bowling

Emboof@verizon.net — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 06:10:51 GMT

Yep, I went bowling with the furs yesterday (tons of fun). This is footage taken by Synthwolf (thanks, dude). Surprisingly, I'm at the start of the video being EXTREMELY gay. Check it out. I took some footage too, but not much and I haven't gotten around to importing/editing it yet.

Crazy-Ass Dream I Just Woke Up From

Emboof@verizon.net — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 14:56:25 GMT

This will jump around a bit, but that's true to the dream.

I’m in the Grandparents' backyard. I could feel something was off. I felt uneasy and there was a tension in the air. I realized that during the course of this visit I had not yet seen their dog who usually was always thrilled to see me*. I looked over and saw him lying still in his doghouse. I figured he was dead, and looked over at the the porch where the grandparents were just sitting there. I wanted to say something, but his paw moved. Still, I didn't want to approach. Next ting I knew my mom and dad showed up. We were all in the backyard when a storm started up. Within moments it was pouring rain and we had stripped. All kinds of dirt and grime started coming off in the rain and my mom kept dancing around in the rain and babbling about being cleansed. Then the wind picked up and the craziest lightning I'd ever scene started constantly streaking the sky. I said it was good to be cleansed and all but that we should get inside away from the lightning.
I'm driving in my car back home (which is either eastern WA or California) and suddenly I'm with my neighbor/friend Roland and we're joining a group of people huddled together in a stairwell listening/watching the Oscars on a big screen which is taking place in the stadium located some yards away from the stairwell. We're all so tightly packed together that it was hard to move and was almost like a furpile without the shenanigans. I notice then that the guy right next to me has a jar full of multi-colored wasps and when someone wins who he doesn't want to win he releases a wasp in the hopes that it will fly to the winner and sting him/her. The jar alone gets me freaked and when he lets one out it flies onto my leg and i totally freak out. It flies off somewhere and i start to get up and leave while cursing and such.
I start walking home and decide I absolutely have to use the bathroom and enter a restroom (despite the fact my place is across the street). When I’m finished I notice the restroom is more expansive than I thought and there is a small room/closet with a bed in it. I go to investigate and find a black boy living there with his younger brother and younger sister. His younger sister is chained up and wearing a dog-collar and made to look like a whore. The boy who couldn’t be no older than 12 says to me “Do you know where I can get me a real girl? I need a REAL girl” and he kinda motions to his sister. I just say no and I walk out while he’s staring angrily at me.
I notice dawn is an hour or two off and I make it home. Home is a condo, but thought of as an apartment. I go to bed (where my ex, Chris, is sleeping) and am about to lie down when I notice I’m really not tired and may as well make it an all-nighter so I get up and go back outside. The landlord sees me and asks what I’m doing out at this hour. I say I just couldn’t sleep and want to take a shower. She asks why I don’t just go to the bathhouse**. I say I didn’t know it was open at this time and she says it’s always open. So I enter the restroom again and I wander it as it keeps expanding and suddenly I’m in the bathhouse which I just sort of pass through and end up back at the condo.
I’m in my room with some friends just chilling and one asks if he can invite some friends and I say yes. In fact, I want it to turn into a fur party.
Suddenly, it’s the middle of the day and I’m wandering the premises meeting with all the furs that showed up, the place is packed inside and out. I find my friend Nighcat and he says it’s larger than any party he’s ever thrown. I start to feel a bit overwhelmed and make my way to my room. I open the door and right away see Certain Fur A with Certain Fur B in my bed and they look at me and simply ask if I mind. I hold back my anger and just tell them not to do that stuff here and I look at Certain Fur B and whisper for him to especially not do that stuff with Certain Fur A.
I continue to wander and notice the place is starting to look empty. Then I wake up.

*Growing up, I was the only one the dog trusted. Whenever anyone else tried to approach him or come over he barked at and tried to bite. I could even pet him while he was eating and stick my hands down near his bowl.

** Not really a bathhouse. More like a locker room with a pool-sized hot tub and ginormous shower stall and steam room that was available to tenants and sexual shenanigans seemed non-existent.

Vanity

Emboof@verizon.net — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 15:22:12 GMT

Good News, Bad News, Good News

Emboof@verizon.net — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 02:07:17 GMT

I heard back from the ex the night after I sent a break-up e-mail (believe me, e-mail was the best way) and at first the e-mail made him nervous, but he said he was having doubts about us as well and so it was a mutual break-up. That was such a relief because the most emotional thing to me was the thought of me being yet another guy to break his heart. So yay, and I am so not ever dating outside of the fur fandom again.

I straightened my hair Tuesday night, which is something I used to do frequently in the past. However, this time I had a bad allergic reaction to the hair relaxer. Within a few minutes of it being in my hair I broke out into hives on my underarms and nether regions. I took a Benadryl and washed it out after it had sat just long enough to make my hair straight. The rest of the night the itching/break-outs were minimal. By morning just my wrists had broken out but then the arms started too again. I took some more meds and that kept things at bay until after I got home yesterday then it was the worst break-out (arms and nether regions again). That cleared up after about an hour, then my chest area broke out. That cleared up and then the tops of my feet broke out. Guess things just had to get worse before getting better because by the time I went to bed there were only a few small itchy patches here and there. Nevertheless I'm still continuing to take some Benadryl. Never straightening my hair again, I did research online and holy shit that stuff is bad. Apparently it can break down the immune system so even if you don't react to it the first time, it can make you more susceptible the next time. Also there were some real horror stories about permanent baldness and infected burns and possible fatalities because of asphyxiation caused by swelling. I like having my hair straight, but it isn't worth all the hassle.

Last night I had a most wonderful dream. I dreamt I was "with" Alexander from "Where the Wild Things Are" and I was breaking the news to my mother that this non-human was my boyfriend. *sighs* I even remember what it felt like to be held by him... magical.

"Even the coldest days were moments ago, but seconds away."

Emboof@verizon.net — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 15:09:39 GMT

Welp, I'm single again. It was a cruel decision I had to make, but it was the right one. I'll miss him, but despite how great he treated me we just didn't have all that much in common. I can't even remember the last time we had an actual stimulating conversation where either of us really cared or was truly interested in what the other was saying. I'm a cool-headed balanced social guy and I need that out of a mate as well. *sighs* The first night is always the hardest and a big thanks goes out to Kae for helping me through my emotional shit, I'm very grateful to have him as a friend.

Speaking of friends, if you haven't seen me online in the last few weeks, know that I'm not ignoring you. My PC crashed and I'm just now getting around to re-downloading my IM programs. Also, even when I download the new version of MSN I still get a message saying that I need to download the latest version for the program to work. I do that, and it keeps doing the same thing.

Obligatory 2009 re-cap

Emboof@verizon.net — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 17:33:11 GMT

This was a pretty damn good year. I didn't complete the goals I made at the beginning of the year, but I'm ok with that. I realize I'm pretty content with things as they are. No need to churn out a bunch of projects in an effort to get noticed because while I still want to do little projects and complete the ones I've started I don't feel that sense of urgency. Getting a new job this year helped a lot, because I love it. So, what are some key things that happened this year?

-Went to New York/Long Island
-Attended FC in California
-Was way more social (went to many furmeets and such)
-Got laid off from job I was sick of
-Got new job I love
-Got a mate
-Broke up with mate
-Got a new mate (but do wonder how much we really have in common and such)
-Saw Avatar (will never forget that)
-Finally got a new tv (hated the old boxy square 60lb piece of junk) and a blu-ray player
-Was in the best shape ever in September until I got an infection and had to stop doing physical things while the hole in my side closed up (can still feel it from time to time), but I'm actually eating salad for lunch and having yogurt and tea for breakfast so at least my diet is becoming balanced.

Swallowing Pride

Emboof@verizon.net — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 14:57:23 GMT

Ok, I admit it, Blu-ray is a shit-ton better than DVD. I know I've bad-mouthed Blu-ray and said it's overrated and that I had no desire to switch and all that jazz. However, after spending $23 for the "Terminator Salvation" director's cut on DVD when the Blu-ray was $16 I decided it would be most advantages to get a player simply because new releases on Blu-Ray are cheaper than the DVD special editions and I was sick of paying more. Welp, my first Blu-rays were "District-9",
"The Road Warrior", "2001", and, "Blade Runner" and I gotta say I'm very impressed. Granted, there's still some issues/imperfections in images; Such as gradients in shadows/darker areas have a very digital look and don't look all that smooth (very evident in some scenes in "Blade Runner"). It's like instead of being able to show a seamless transition from gray to black you actually see the different shades, kind of like when you do a print test and you can see light gray, gray, dark gray, black. But I've recently begun to notice that on some DVDs too (it's very prominent on my Vexille dvd to the point of being annoying), so it's not like Blu-ray has corrected some problems and brought about new ones, I think it's just that it's so clear it's now more noticeable (maybe I just need to adjust the TV *shrugs*). Also, I swear in the opening interrogation scene in "Blade Runner" there are moments where the replicant's eye is trying to catch up with the rest of the movements of the face/seems to float there for a split second. When it comes to the issue of a grainy image, the grain is more noticeable, simply because the image is sharper. Otherwise, no other complaints about the format. I am a skeptic no more, just had to watch a blu-ray, then watch a dvd on the same TV using an HDMI cable and I spotted the difference right away.

BTW, took the folks to see Avatar 3D on X-mas day. They thought the visuals were incredible and loved the 3D, but the story pissed them off. They said they're sick of Hollywood abusing their power by pushing their liberal views on the rest of the world *rolls eyes*.

Joining the bandwagon

Emboof@verizon.net — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 05:54:23 GMT

Avatar 3D: Most incredible thing I have ever seen.

Even that doesn't do the experience justice. Seriously, there were tears streaming down my cheek half the time because the sights on display were so breathtakingly beautiful. It's something I'll never forget and wish all to experience.

Still alive

Emboof@verizon.net — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 17:26:37 GMT

Oy, me and my lack of updates.

So, anyways, what's been up? Meh, not too much thus the lack of updates. No, it's not a case of me having a boyfriend so everything else is being ignored. It's just nothing else all that exciting has happened worth reporting. Picked up the Target exclusive Terminator Salvation dvd (stupid blu-ray and your exclusive features. They say it's clearer, but I swear whenever i see the displays the picture looks grainy and weird)and I thought the movie rocked. Dunno what kinda bug got up the ass of all it's naysayers, but as a neat sci-fi action flick it totally delivers. Same goes for G.I Joe, it's an action movie and not meant to be taken seriously. It's to entertain and that thing is incredible in that sense. Ugh, I hate critics. The whole reason we go to movies is for the escape they offer, people who complain about the impossible happening in movies and whether the story is good or not (even if the action setpieces are great) really shouldn't see movies or given any right to comment on them because that's not the audience they're made for.

Went to a bellfurs meet which was actually kinda lame this time around. All my local furiends know I tend to take my shirt off at parties at some point, it's usually expected and encouraged because I do funny crazy stuff. This time, for the first time ever, some pooper at the party took one look at me with my shirt unbuttoned and hanging down and ordered (literally ordered) me to put it back on. Since when did conservative old squares like that start living there and taking control? Once he showed up I knew the party was going down the tubes so left much earlier than usual. Weird he had a problem with something as simple as my shirt being off (which has come off every time I've been there on the dance floor) yet the hookah is able to make an appearance all the time. To think I had spent the whole morning baking cookies to bring.

In other news. While the boyfriend slept last weekend (he sleeps til noon) I decided to turn on the wii. I've had that thing for a year and only played it for like 2 hours max and then it sat untouched. Well, anyways, I continued the game Endless Ocean (game I originally started playing) and now I guess I'm hooked on my wii. All i did this week was come home and play that game and last night beat it (although it's not a game you really "beat", because you just swim around and explore but after awhile are given the main mission which is simple and with the time advancement feature it can be completed in like a half hour and then the credits roll and then the game continues so you can explore all the places you've missed and collect more things). I can't wait for the sequel, plus the shopping bug hit and I picked up a bunch more games: Jurassic the Hunted, Mushroom Men, Speed Racer, Alien Monster Bowling League, and Deadly Creatures. Deadly Creatures I've wanted for quite awhile but the thing was $50 when it came out; however, Best Buy now has it in their $14.99 bin so I snatched that thing up.

Welp, tomorrow should be fun. Seeing Fantastic Mr. Fox with my firend Kae and his crowd. Later all.

Shopping spree/check 'em out

Emboof@verizon.net — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 04:27:50 GMT

First, Happy Birthday wishes to Emy and Queue.

This weekend/week I went on a bit of a shopping spree. These days I seem to be a bit less stylish than I used to be, so I did something about it. Saturday I picked up a lime green belt, leather cuff links, and a lime green collar ('bout time I replaced the purple one that holds my old name). Today I did some music shopping. I'd seen an album on the Target shelf for awhile that I was curious about called "Beauty Killer" by Jeffree Star. As I listen to it I think "Holyhell I love this thing! Everyone, buy it now!". Also, after listening to samples, I ordered a cd by La Roux, a cd by Gossip called "Music for Men", and two Danielle Dax CDs I've had my eye on. Below you'll get tastes of these musicians (Nightcat, I think you'll especially get a kick outta them).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JZ1Mi77nogQ -bastards don't allow embedding

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOYufRHQSms -bastards don't allow embedding

RainFurrest Video

Emboof@verizon.net — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 04:16:26 GMT

Finally finished editing. Took awhile because I've been busy and lazy. I was determined to make it a bit different from most convention videos I've seen. It's long-ish, slower paced, and leads up to an upbeat climax. Also, I used all my own music by re-working/expanding on some previous tracks I've done. I think it seems more like a short film than a highlight reel:

Mmm, Alexander

Emboof@verizon.net — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 15:04:07 GMT

Saturday I introduced the BF to some furs, it seemed to go over well and was a fun night. We all went and saw "Where The Wild Things Are" (Funny, because I just realized we actually watched "Wild Things" the night before since he was convinced he wouldn't like it because of Neve Campbell and Denise Richards, but he decided it was really good). Anyways, (probably like all other furs) I fell in love with Alexander and sooo want to marry him :P.

In other news, work sucks this week so far. I pulled an 8:10 - 9:30 shift last night because I was determined to finish the project I was on (replacing nameplates at Univar).

Hopefully, this week I'll finish editing RF footage and get it posted.

Bday Retrospective

Emboof@verizon.net — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 04:03:59 GMT

First of all, big thanks and *hugs* to those that wished me a Happy Bday. I would have commented back to each of them, but coming up with different replies and not sounding like a bad remix would have been a challenge.

It was a good Bday. the actual day of it I actually had a relaxing evening at home and felt very contented. However, that's because the 6th is when I celebrated it. The folks treated Chris and I to dinner at Duke's Chowder House. The meeting between him and the folks went rather well, they commented that he was very polite and well-mannered. I still don't think they'll ever war up completely to the whole boyfriend aspect though since they are quite conservative, but *shrugs*. The stepfather made light of the fact that Chris and I kept playing footsies under the table.

Today started out sucky tho because the damn neighbor was rummaging around and sto,ping around while his dogs whined and barked from 1:30 - 3:30 AM. Therefore, I was a bit out-of-it at work. Anyways, not much else to say ATM.

Happy Birthday To Me

Emboof@verizon.net — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 14:25:59 GMT

Yep, Bday today, 26. Ugh, I'm so close to 30, the gay man's middle-age. However I feel I'm in the best shape I've ever been in what with the working out and dieting I was doing until the infection, but in another week or two I'll (hopefully) be able to take up running again.

RF, Infection, Mate

Emboof@verizon.net — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 18:36:22 GMT

Lots of stuff been going down.

I attended RainFurrest which was a lot of fun. Spent time with mys best friends (Kae, Nightcat, Rainrat, Marfles, etc.) and met some folks IRL for the first time (Tearless/Bobby and RaptorRed) which was awesome. And of course, Eluned, it was awesome to hang with you too. Ate out at some great places (Bahama Breeze, 13 Coins) and just really enjoyed myself in general. Unfortunately...

A few days prior to the con I got what I think is a spider bite on my waist line, on my left side. I didn't think much of it and popped it... bad idea. Because of it's location my underwear strap/belt constantly rubbed against it, which caused it to get irritated which (I learn after visiting the doctor Monday morning after the con) caused it to get infected and become staff. So... yeah, I was in pain at the con and in a helluva lot more last week. On the first visit to the doctor I got 2 shots in the infected area (numbing stuff) and he took a scalpel to it and carved out quite a chunk and prescribed some antibiotics. The second visit (Thursday) he gave me 6 shots and pulled out a bunch of dead tissue and packed it with gauze. Saturday was the final visit where he pulled out the packing and gave me another prescription while the mate waited in the waiting room...

Yep, it's oficial, I have a mate (Chris/Kaze). I've mentioned him briefly before and to some friends, but not exactly officially on here. We've been corresponding for about a month and a half while he was visiting family in Texas, but he's back up here now living in a dorm on the UW campus. Friday was out first meeting and he stayed until monday evening and will pretty much be up most future weekends which means...

I'll probably be a little scarce online. Truth be told I used to sign on so often because either I'd be talking to a crush or hoping one would find me. I'm not going to cut off friends, in fact I plan on introducing him to everyone, but my SN just probably won't be popping up all that often on messengers.

Seattle Aquarium

Emboof@verizon.net — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 15:10:01 GMT

This is footage taken during a trip to the Seattle Aquarium with some furiends on July 19th.

Wolf Haven

Emboof@verizon.net — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 03:03:14 GMT

This is actually footage taken from a Seattlefurs visit to the Olympia Wolf Haven on June 6th that I just now got around to posting. The trip was actually a surprise for the ex-mate (no he's not seen in the vid, but is briefly heard) and it was a lot of fun. Enjoy.

Silvolf tagged me

Emboof@verizon.net — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 04:38:37 GMT

I'll be bad and not follow the rules by tagging people.

Firstly: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.
Secondly: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Who sleeps in bed next to you?
Actually, there's a pic of Sterreo next to me and a Chcicken Joe plush. Hopefully, that will soon change.

Have you ever done anything extreme?
*shrugs* told a recruiter I was too much of a flaming queen to join the forces. He then got a weird look on his face and walked off. Used to get into a ton of fights as a kid, enjoyed them.

Who are your favorite bands/singers?
Gary Numan, David Bowie, Toyah, Eurythmics, The Killers

What are your current fandoms/addiction/obsession?
I like fur porn, Sterreo, furmeets, and talking to my boyfriend.

What's your fashion style?
I love wearing Tank tops and shorts the most.

Who is your celebrity crush?
Never had a crush on a celebrity. I have to know a human to find him attractive.

Who are your role models?
Grace Jones, David Bowie, Gary Numan

What are you listening to right now?
The dryer.

What food could you eat every day for weeks and not get sick of?
Chili Verde. Although I do eat a PB & J sandwich every day for lunch, except the very rare occassions when I have leftovers instead.

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Livejournal, FA, Fchan, Verizon

What was the last thing you bought today?
3 DVDs online: One-Eyed Monster, The Enforcer, Chocolate. Does pre-reg for RainFurrest count?

What was the sexiest thing you've seen today?
Every day I see a pic of Ster, so... yeah.

Does the weather affect your mood?
Depends. I Guess if I'm feelin' lonely/depressed the rain amplifies it.

If you could have any superpower, what would it be?
Either read minds or talk to animals.

Do you want to learn another language?
Instantly, yes. Take the effort to, no.

5 things you can't live without.
Belief in finding true love, penis :P, food, friends, music

Anything you want to say to someone?
Eventually, when the time is right, I'd like to say something face-to-face to Kaze.

If you belonged to a different culture, which one would it be?
Uhh, I always wanted to live amongst a bunch of extra-terrestrials.

What are you looking forward to?
A certain person's arrival Sept. 25th. Also RF.

Say something to the person who tagged you:
I consider you one of my best friends, even though we don't chat as much as we used to, but I'd like to. However, I just always run out of things to say when we do. I certainly hope we can hang out IRL one of these days.

Blah blah blah

Emboof@verizon.net — Fri, 31 Jul 2009 01:10:52 GMT

I have got to say that I have THE coolest boss in the world. Yesterday at work she said "it's too hot to work today, let's make it a field trip day." So she took me to see Bruno and still paid me for a full day's work. That flick really was uproariously funny and had me in tears with laughter at times. And yes, a lot of times I was watching it with my hands in the form of a tunnel thinking "oh no he isn't". I can't wait for the dvd so I can see some deleted footage.

Today it was another scorcher and yet again we left early, this time to go to Red Robin and then to see Transformers 2. Overall I liked it, the action was great. However, the attempts at humor were pretty cringe-worthy and painful to watch. Buuut, as a whole the movie isn't at all as bad as others are making it out to be as long as it's the action you're interested in.

Still alive

Emboof@verizon.net — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 05:50:44 GMT

Yeah, I'm still alive. Just been busy with work and social gatherings and such, one of which included seeing "Ice Age 3-d". Sid in three dimensions had me melting in my seat, I swear I'm the only one who likes him. Also, "Watchmen" is sooo much better the 2nd time around. In fact, I think it's one of the year's best.

Fursona

Emboof@verizon.net — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 15:33:50 GMT

Before I was Emboof, I had a fursona which was a white rat with red mohawk. However, my favorite animal is the red kangaroo and I have a major attraction to scalies. In, fact, I used to think of myself as a chameleon because I used to change my appearance all the time IRL. I also always feel like a bit of an alien and for years I've always liked the idea of alien reptilian kangaroos. I now present to you my fursona:

An alien whose skin is comprised of lime green scales and sporting red hair. He resembles a lizard crossed with a kangaroo and rat. Keep in mind he's an alien, so it's not necessarily a result of cross-breeding.

It hurts so bad just like I knew that it would

Emboof@verizon.net — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 03:25:36 GMT

Yep, today I had to make the most painful and hard decision I've so far made. I broke up with the mate. The first week together was amazing. He was cuddly, we slept together, I actually felt he had strong feelings for me. But the next week he started playing video games more frequently and coming to bed later after I was already asleep. This week it was video games again (sometimes until I woke up the next morning) and not joining me in bed at all and sex only occurred like twice the whole visit after I fussed with him and one of the times he got off and refused to get me off saying he'd do it later, later didn't come. Friday was pretty nice because I came home and he actually wasn't gaming. He had cleaned and planned to cook dinner (I was craving a shake so we went to Red Robin instead), but every time I went to hold him he'd break away and not hold me back. I'm a guy who doesn't always have to be doing something and like to just enjoy quiet moments alone with that special someone. The final straw that told me I had to end it was this morning when I got under the blanket and cuddled up next to him and he simply shrugged me off saying I was cold and grabbed the blanket back. Me, if he had come up to me to cuddle I wouldn't give a damn how cold he was or if he woke me from the deepest sleep, I'd be happy to hold him and warm him up. I told him I want a mate who actually cares about my feelings instead of just his and that mates should have a desire to make each other happy and experience one another. One should think "I'm with my mate, I'm gonna make the best of it." not "I'm with my mate, I can play video games and he can do stuff for me." I got the feeling he liked the way I treated him, but that that was all he liked. I admit I have a higher than normal sex drive, but I was well-aware our sexlife would die down after awhile, but there's no reason it should die after a few weeks, especially after we spend some time apart in between them. It isn't everything, but it is important and I could be content with less sex than usual if he would at least get physical with me by cuddling me instead of me always having to be the one cuddling him while he lies there. So... yeah. He suggested that maybe we just need some time apart and he can think things through, which would be nice because once he learns how a mate should be treated and wants to treat one in that way he'd be as close to perfect as they get in my eyes. The way things were going... I can't love someone if I'm constantly going to question whether he truly has feelings for me or not. Meh, maybe our story isn't over yet, but I'd say I am on the market again even if I'm not actively looking quite as much. After awhile if he doesn't want to start again then I'd say the search will officially continue. *sighs* There's always RainFurrest.

Sorry friends, and I'm sure I'll regret posting this.

Emboof@verizon.net — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 05:35:38 GMT

I've been quite scarce lately. This is due to the fact that I'm actually keeping busy. Work is still going well and it's getting busy so I'm able to get in some more hours. I'm still with the mate and so he's usually up every other week for a week at a time so even the times when he isn't here I'm rarely online because I take the opportunity to read or watch movies because he's usually hogging the tv playing video games. Anyways, to all the friends who I haven't talked to in awhile I apologize and swear it really is just because I'm occupied, I miss all of ya though.

Anyways, going back to the mate... I'm in a bit of a quandry. I feel I can trust him and am sure he's at least content and would stay true. However, he does play video games too much for my own liking which I've talked to him about. Apart from that he isn't all that affectionate. He likes to get attention and be cuddled, but doesn't reciprocate and it's quite the downer. I like to be affectionate and treat a mate right, but I'd like the same in return and so far I haven't quite gotten that. I mean we don't even have sex that often, pretty much just a few times on the weekends if he's in the mood or I've fussed with him enough and a lot of those times once he's done he leaves me hangin'. I know it probably just seems like a shitty thing to do to reveal all this dirty laundry, but this is the first actual mateship I've been in and wonder if it's normal for things to start off this way and then become better or if it's a bad sign. Should I have a talk with him about these issues this soon, or wait awhile? Plus I have to vent these little frustrations somewhere. I want things to work out with him, I really do, but it'll take compromises on both ends and he just doesn't seem to want to compromise and would rather have things revolve around him. I care about his feelings and don't want to hurt him in any way, but a lot of times it seems like he doesn't care about mine. He wants a life with me so I'm sure I make him happy, but when it comes to me being happy he isn't currently putting forth the effort. I'm going to give this some time, but without improvements... yeah.

Tagged by Silvolf

Emboof@verizon.net — Fri, 12 Jun 2009 04:54:08 GMT

Five things you will find if you open my bag.

Uh, I normally don't have a bag, when I do:
1. Shirts
2. Pants
3. Lube
4. Toothpaste
5. Shaver

Five things in my bedroom
1. Bed
2. Sterreo stuff
3. Porn
4. Clothes
5. Plushies of chars from movies

Five things I’ve always wanted to do in my life
1. Find true love
2. Make/star in a movie
3. Write a novel
4. Create a music CD
5. Be abducted by aliens

Five things that make me very happy
1. Sterreo
2. Tarn (except when he's playing video games/not being cuddly)
3. Friends
4. Music
5. Movies

Five things I’m currently into
1. Watching movies
2. Surfing the web
3. Attending furmeets
4. Reading
5. Expanding music collection

Five things on my To-Do list
1. Finish making movie
2. Finish writing novels and fanfics
3. Start a third CD
4. Edit and post footage from Wolf Haven
5. Attend Rainfurrest with Tarn

Five things some people may or may not know about you
1. I can mimic people/voices
2. I like no-brainer over-the-top action flicks
3. I used to have a really bad temper and get into fights
4. My love of 80's started with my love of Brooklyn (first love ever) from Gargoyles
5. I used to be overweight

Five most important moments of the last year
Well, this year..
1. Meeting Tarn
2. Attending FC
3. Getting laid off
4. Starting new job
5. Getting new camcorder

Five things you enjoy doing during your free time
Pretty much all this was covered in interests, but..
1. Hang with Tarn
2. Daydream
3. Relax/sleep
4. Hang with friends
5. Eat

Five impressions of the person who tagged me
1. Great friend
2. Awesome artist
3. Comforting
4. Very akin to me
5. Great matchmaker *eyes Sterreo*